you’ve got to start somewhere

I’ve had this crazy idea to start a blog for quite some time now. Maybe before “blogs” even existed, and certainly before their massive proliferation, when everyone found out “Hey, this isn’t so hard after all”. I remember working on this really tacky orange website when I was in the 8th grade where I wanted to post reviews of video games and tidbits about my views on world politics as perceived by a 13-year-old. (by the way, nothing against tacky, orange websites). I’m not sure if that site ever went up, but I am pretty sure that it was way before anyone other than frighteningly geeky people had ever heard the term “blog”.

There is certainly the fear that this blog will fall stagnant due to my real life commitments, which I do have, which have also been becoming exponentially more complicated (and convoluted, sadly) as of late. There is also the fear that this, along with the vast majority of other blogs in existence, will never find its way out of relative obscurity. I try not to think too hard about it, though. Maybe no one will actually ever read this. It’s quite liberating, really. Maybe now I’ll just say whatever I want and not worry about filtering it all for a wider audience. Oh, yes. That’s right, I filter my thoughts for you. Oh my. Shocking news, this. Of course, this is the advantage of having a blog as opposed to a radio show.

Slap me silly.

I’ve had a real obsession with self-help books lately, too. Yep. Whenever I walk into a bookstore I try to avoid it, but I always inevitably find myself wandering over to the self-help section, looking for new and different ways to do things, new ways of thinking and operating, ways to grow and expand and actually get the most out of life (oh, what a war-torn promise). And maybe that’s really, secretly what this blog is for. Originally I was just writing, dumping my thoughts, putting my ideas away for later use. I constructed a humongous repository of information which I’ve dubbed my “Idea Fridge” (more on that later). I began writing advice for myself. Something about having it written down somewhere made me want to actually follow it. So, that’s really what it boils down to. I’m writing a self-help guide for myself. And maybe you can benefit from it too, if you’re crazy enough to listen to me.